One month later...

I just realized that it has been a month since this all started.  It seems like an eternity ago.  Our world stood still, yet time kept on.  How can that be?  I started back to work today.  I have mixed feelings about that.  It gives me something to do and makes the day go by faster.  But it is just one more reminder that the world goes on.  Like nothing is wrong.  Life as usual.  Sometimes I want to just scream.  How can life go on without Alex?  I don't know how to do it.  Why is it so easy for everyone else?